The gore is too much...

I was looking at reaction videos to Game of Thrones on YouTube and got lost in a few TWD videos. Keep in mind I don't watch the show. The only seasons I've watched were the first two, but I dropped the show after a few episodes into the third season.

The first two videos I saw were fairly mild in comparison to what I'm used to. The first video was where Carl lost his eye, and the second video was where he revealed his eye socket to some guy who said it was "gross".

But, the third video, which is hopefully the last of TWD that I ever see, was too much. Even now as I'm trying to describe what I saw and recalling it, I start to feel nauseous and it starts to feel like I'm about to have a panic attack.

The video I'm talking about is where Glenn gets killed, and that's putting it mildly.

I had no expectations nor the slightest idea of what was going to happen since I don't follow the show. The way his eye is protruding, with the guy taunting him like some kind of psychopath, and Glenn trying to speak to Maggie but not making much sense because well, his brains are probably not right at this point.

That's where I turned the video off. Apparently it gets even worse afterwards, but I don't even want to imagine what that could be. Seeing him alive in that condition was enough to give me PTSD. I get triggered by the word "eye" and I can't even look at the actor without thinking immediately of how his character died.

And that's the problem. No matter how many times I've tried to tell myself that THEY ARE JUST ACTING, THIS IS A SHOW, IT'S NOT REAL, the way they did his make-up made it seem like anything but fake.

It's been several hours since I saw it and I'm still not over it. I've felt like vomiting, felt like I'm about to have an anxiety attack, and I just can't get my shit together. What the hell is wrong with me? I can watch any gory scene in GOT without batting an eyelash, but this I can't do.

I feel like it'll be a long while before I get over this. Seeing it completely ruined my day.

Maybe it would be less horrifying if I at least knew WHY it happened? And what the hell is wrong with the guy who did it? The way he talks about it casually is making it even fucking worse.

Help me.

Submitted August 02, 2017 at 03:58PM by eblam http://ift.tt/2ulanBG