[No Spoilers] I Feel Like I Can't Breathe When I Think About Game of Thrones

I've officially finished binge-watching Game of Thrones for the 3rd time today (2 for the final season), excluding all the times i spent watching theory, reaction and review videos on YouTube, and feelings of suffocating and depression hit me like a truck... again. I can never articulate my words and describe how i feel because i just feel my throat closing up, my eyes tearing up, and my breathing getting difficult. i feel as if i've lost someone. I won't try to explain it further as i really feel that i'm about to suffocate.

Every time i think about the show, the story, the characters, the stunning visuals and the masterpieces of songs, I am so overwhelmed with all these emotions and i feel like i can't breathe. A part of me died the day the show ended. I know that some might see this as an exaggeration but i've never felt so attached to a story or characters ever, or even people for that matter. This show meant to me more than i will ever be able to convey or feel towards something or even someone else. I still cry every time I hear the stark theme or dany's theme (excuse me for the inaccuracy here) and all the memories come rushing back, i am even crying writing this. I think about the journeys of all the characters, how they started and where they ended, and those we lost along the way. I know the show and the story had to end but did it have to end so soon?

It left a hole in my heart, and nothing has ever been able to replace it. I've tried reading the books but i just can't, i can barely rewatch the show without tearing up at everything and anything, even the small things like Jon's smile. The last season broke me, this show broke me. i want to scream and cry and shout but most importantly i want to know that i'm not alone... i feel so alone in the world already, i don't want to talk much, i just want a single person to say that they understand me and they feel what i feel.

Thank you for reading this kind stranger, i just felt like i need to share. i wanted to write and articulate my thoughts but i can never do that. Maybe i'll rewatch it again in the next few years and write my thoughts down and finally deal with my feelings, or maybe i'll suffocate and cry again.

Submitted January 19, 2021 at 10:30PM by skylerdj https://ift.tt/3o3iyhM