When I first started watching Better Call Saul around season 2 I was struggling with depression and stuff, but the show was something I became obsessed with and really looked forward to. Because it was on Mondays, it got me through the week. Toward the end of season 3 when Chuck seemed to be doing well with his mental health and was actually making plans for the future and working on therapy techniques I loved those moments. Then when he killed himself it was absolutely gutting and it made me feel hopeless about my own recovery. Even though it's such an artistically important moment in this show it almost felt cruel of the showmakers to take it that direction, because so much of their thought process is "what would this character do next". Seeing the guy who was struggling with his mental health but starting to break through just end it like that was devastating. I don't think I've told anyone because it seems weird, it's just TV, but immediately after that episode I started having suicidal thoughts again when I hadn't in months. I'm doing awesome overall now and have met people in the real world with anxiety disorders who are doing well and give me more hopeful examples to compare myself to, but at the time the characters felt so real to me and it was one of the only places in the media that I was seeing with a character that was dealing with mental illness.
Submitted January 31, 2019 at 08:17AM by Princess_Queen http://bit.ly/2Tn4qRZ
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